I had been taking Music Therapy
by Dr. Chandrakant for 9 months. It might be 17 or 18 times
totally. As the time goes by, I had various experiences.
Last time I experienced amazing things. I had a feeling
that left part of my chest was lifted up, and a feeling
that my head skin was waving within the depth of 1cm. And
all of my cells were reacted according to the Sitar sound.
My friend said that I always
had painful face expressions during Music Therapy. Dr. Chandrakant
told me that it was because of compressed sadness and pains
inside of myself and that they were releasing through these
face reactions.
Since childhood, I have something to reject, as I don't
want to accept.
"If you could release Hate inside, you can be changed
more." he added.
"How can I release compressed feeling in me?",
I asked.
He smiled and answered, "That's why Sitar is here."
I have been living with ear troubles
since I was born. The handicap of deaf brought a negative
attitude in me and I couldn't have self-confidence. So that
I was not good at communicating with others.
4 years ago when I first met
Tamo san, I joined her workshop and I tried to hear my heart
beat through a stethoscope. But I couldn't hear my heart
beat, nor the breaths of trees.
At that time Tamo san told me silently, "You will be
all right. You can hear. It was because you didn't want
to hear so far, didn't you? Please love yourself and be
kind to yourself."
Tears overflowed after the Tamo san's words.
It was likely that I had been
rejecting my mother's words since I was in her uterus. I
think my mother used to use negative words, because she
was too much suffering and having much worries. And also
she had a very hard years during world war II and before
& after the war as her background.
As my mother wished to cure her deaf daughter, she had taken
me to the big university hospital, sometimes rushed to some
religion, and she brought me up with lots of worries.
And thus, I could be here with this happiness.
Now my father is 88 years old
and my mother is 83 years old. Their bodies become smaller.
They live together independently, wishing not to bother
their children, with their legs not to move smoothly. I
feel that they look beautiful and graceful.
Last December, there was a good
change in me. I found that I could hear better. I could
hear the clock sound clearly, and I could hear TV sound
in small volume. Now I can hear well. I felt like I was
surrounded by Sitar music, cured and melted by Sitar sound.
I found that I was not a deaf, but I had closed my ears
because I didn't want to hear. Now I finally understood
that all the causes were created in me.
Dr. Chandrakant knows everything. I asked, "How do
you know?"
"It is Heart Language.", he answered.
It seems that the heart communicates with the heart.
One time when I took therapy hiding some trouble inside,
he said that I was angry and horned, to my surprise.
He understood my horns hiding behind. So we laughed a lot.
And another time, I saw a broken Sitar, made from pumpkin,
in the paper box. It was broken during transportation. Dr.
Chandrakant said with his eyes moving circularly, "Pumpkin
got tired."
I wonder how many persons are
cured and become happy with this pumpkin.
I would like to introduce this
wonderful Music Therapy. And I will go to see him and take
therapy continuously.
I thank God for giving me this wonderful encounter.
